The Holidays

The holidays are here! Sigh...

I am glad the holidays are here.  I'm just not happy that Austin is not!  But that is the same every day.  We have had so many things happen in the last six months, and I'm not happy he is not here to share them.  That's just the way it is! We have so many memories of Christmas past. So, the tree goes up and the decorations are pulled out, but it's not the same.  It never will be.  

What are we to do? Austin would be wearing his eggnog onesie around the house right now...even at 80 degrees in Texas.  He would have already enjoyed his first eggnog of the season.  He would have already pulled out the record player and listed to Elvis Christmas (we did that the other day!)

My beliefs say he passed away and went to heaven. Do I really believe that? If I don’t, then I really see no need to celebrate Christmas. Christmas is when we celebrate the birth of Jesus. That only means anything because he came into this world as a baby, and he lived a perfect life and died so that I might have eternal life. Believing Austin went to a Heaven to the Jesus made available to us means I can still celebrate Christmas.  

​The question is, "Do I really want to celebrate Christmas?" I'm not so sure.  If I embrace the Live Like Austin idea, then yes, I will celebrate Christmas. For now, only because I know Austin would.  The real Christmas miracle would be if the Christmas spirit would come alive in me again.  Pray that it will one day....